Grace Tu

Grace Tu

Wednesday, March 20, 2013

Not the Person I Want to Be....Yet

There is this version of me that I want to be.

I was hoping that I can be that person by the time I am 30, and then, I will be able to proudly say on the day, look how much I have grown.

But so far I have been taking wrong steps almost every single day and no matter how much I beat myself up about it, I still can't do it perfectly the next day.

I still don't spending enough time being with people I love and showing how much I care.

I am still judgemental even when it's absolutely none of my business.  I am still not kind enough to people.

I am still not focusing my energy on things that truly matters.

I still have thoughts that I don't wish to have in my head.

It is unbelievably difficult to make the change when some of these things are in my vein, in my blood, and it doesn't seem like there is a magic swtich for me to just turn and transform in two weeks.

I am starting to think maybe I have been aiming too high too fast.

Instead of feeling bad about it... let me celebrate everthing.

1 comment:

  1. You are too harsh on yourself. It is part of the growing pain. Accepting, appreciating yourself and trusting the goodness in youself are equally important as accepting, appreciating and believing in the goodness of others. My 2 cents. You are already perfect in my eyes except the tiny flaw of being too hard on yourself. -Jenny