Alan drank as much as pina colada as he could to make up for the fact that I couldn't have any, and enjoyed snorkeling and exploring the cities while I was in the conference.
It was followed by three whole days of much needed rest.
There is a part of me that wish I had done a lot more than just lying there, watching the waves rolling in and out, and falling asleep. But I did enjoy it; I did enjoy being able to temporary let go of all that's in my head and just feel what I could capture from the sun and the breeze at that moment. Everyone needs a break every now and then, and I needed that break.
Now, it would be nice if I can say it has only been all magical and exciting. But the truth is, I had been absolutely miserable physically for the past many weeks.
That's spending basically every waking moment feeling nausea - even woke me up during the middle of nights. That's having most of my energy sucking out of me so I had difficulty even just to sit and listen to my favorite music. That's almost fainted on skytrain and had to asked someone to please let me sit during rush hours. That's having heartburns throughout the days, and that's losing weight because there's rarely food I could bear eating and that's not being able to keep them down after I ate.
But here is the thing: When it comes to what you know are real and significant in life, you don't really see sacrifice as sacrifice. We reap what we sow - it's simple, and natural. It's true when it comes to the work I enjoy; it's true when it comes to the people I love, and it's definitely true, for this little one in my belly - Oh yes, I am going to love this little one so.
And, when we heard our baby's heartbeat for the very first time, it was the sweetest sound- we couldn't help crying...
We have had such great weather this Easter long weekend.
Though we did not have a chance to really take advantage because of how uncomfortable I have been for the past few days.
I can't remember the last time I felt so physically weak; I can count the minutes that I did not feel sick this whole three days. Most of the time I just wanted to stay in bed, not eat, not drink and not talking to anyone or thinking about anything.
Luckily I have Alan and my sister who, despite what a weak and boring person I have been, were willing to spend time with me and helped me to get some fresh air.
Walking along Iona Beach with Alan and getting my very own "Gracy Style" Smashbook handmade by my dear sister - Those were the moments when my sickness was taken away and replaced by happiness.
Here are some photos of us antiquing in L'Isle-sur-la-Sorgue one beautiful lazy afternoon last October. We did not end up buying anything "old", but we did have an amazing time sipping espresso and picnicking by the water.